Leaving New York…

byebyeplateAbout a month ago I tried putting this post up and it wouldn’t let me save into draft form and it wouldn’t let me post either which was weird.

Despite the technical difficulties, I wanted to share my feelings from the past until now in regards to leaving NYC.

About a month ago, I received an offer I just could not refuse. Through my current employer (yes I do have a day job), an opening came up I couldn’t bypass and after several weeks of interviewing I was offered the position.

I never really shared with anyone about the job or what my plans were. It was probably my best kept secret. Sure I shared with a few close friends, but nothing I needed to share on social media, public or personal.

Once the job was offered, it took me forever to pack. Not realizing how much shit I had, I never really organized myself in this move. Being depressed every now and then didn’t help and of course my parents were too busy to help me pack. I’m not sure what was going on with me. It was a distressed feeling as through the packing was draining me.

I saved everything for the last minute. It was just awful. As excited I was to move, I was still suffering with some form of depression. Even in the state of mind I was finally leaving NYC, I couldn’t shake the dead weight of my mind.

Needless to say, once I did make an announcement I was moving, everyone was sending me messages, asking where was I moving to. Some people didn’t realize they were on a need to know basis, on top of that was any one of these people for me when other things were going on in my life where I could have used a friend? Now, relocating, suddenly people want to be your friend.

No thank you.

Of course a select few were chosen to know, people who I regard as friends.

Right down to the last week, I got cheap to buy more boxes to move the rest of my things into storage since there was only so much money to go around it was either move me or move my things. (Hence the go fund me page www.gofundme.com/mbluemove).

While my stuff is hauled up in storage due to arrive the later part of January, I have to say relocating was the best choice I ever made for my life.

I never thought I would feel a sense of peace. I had been extremely unhappy in NYC since 2009, all I ever wanted to do was leave. When this opportunity came, what better way to go.

It was emotionally taxing to leave. A city I loved for so long felt as though every turn I made to try something new and better myself, wasn’t happening in an overpriced residence. I didn’t like my neighbors anymore, the noise became unbearable. The constant shoving and being squashed by people on the 1 line with those tiny chairs no one fit unless you were like 5 years old, just wasn’t cutting it for me.

My friend has asked me the last two weeks if I miss the Bronx….well.

I don’t.

NYC served its purpose. Something similar my ex said¬†in 2001 when I thought we were working towards reconciliation. Some things serve a purpose and once that purpose is fulfilled, it’s time to move on.

For those of you wondering (and if you’ve seen my instagram posts you already know), I live in Arizona now. Close to Vegas and California. I was scared it would become a “Squidville” episode (for those who watch Spongebob), but thankfully it hasn’t.

I have found a bit of peace in the sea of my own chaos…the ones that live in my head. ūüėČ

And finally you know that crazy question people ask….did you take all your animals? I ask., did you take all your children when you moved?

Until then.

Loves and Hugs,

MB~

 

@KEMTopTalk Highlights Social Media Censorship

IMG_5241Well today is my birthday and I have to say what a great show but what a shitty birthday. Sorry but that’s just the way I feel.

Needless to say, my guest Coach Crystal was an excellent guest and definitely bought enlightenment to the show. Our discussions today with social media in the present, and the possibility of Twitter purging more then 10 million users according to The Daily Beast where the Adult Community may be shut out of promoting their business when it comes to social media.

Now while I can completely understand the “sensitive media”, in my post¬†http://kinkemagazine.com/blog/open-forum/twitter-about-to-purge-10-million-users¬†– frightening to think that my business can be affected as a result of this.

Why would something like this happen? Crystal bought up very good points on the show in regards to what to say and what not to say, how there isn’t an “undo” button like you would in MS Word and no one will see that error. Such a case as mention was Anthony Wiener who literally shared his wiener for the whole world to see on Twitter when he thought he was sharing a private message to whomever it was he was cheating on his wife with at the time.

We also talked about the unspoken demon of buying followers and how people making themselves out to be something they’re really not. The operative word of the show was definitely deceptive marketing. ¬†Check out any account you may follow on Twitter where a random person has over 100K followers as opposed to a celebrity who has the same, how many retweets are they getting next to the celebrity. If that person didn’t get one retweet within a ten minute span, trust they have bought their dead followers.

Social media, censorship, what to say and what not to say is important on the branding of your company. Buying followers reflects your brand and how you represent yourself.

I want to thank Crystal for coming on the show. Check out her show:

SMALL CHANGES ARE HUGE!!  The motto is: Take one small action every day … watch what happens!  Listen to her on her Google Hangout on Wednesdays at 8 PM ET.

I want to thank piece of shit Optimum for fucking up my connection and having to me to start my show late. (SMH)

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