The Jesus Rant

religious-fanatic-1024x571Here we go.

Time for a rant.

I’m confused. Someone clarify. I’m being serious.

You’re a bible thumper. You repeat the words of the “scripture” or what you believe to be and yet you sit there and judge others, their choices and how they live.

Jesus is supposed to be God but then he’s the son of God???? Then he dies, comes back from the dead, people say, “he is risen” while others call him Zombie.

There are people who spend time dissecting the bible for the sole purpose to discredit what is in there.

I honestly don’t have time for that but I will say this, I’m not a believer. I will always respect my grandmother in her beliefs when I speak with her other than that, don’t expect me to open the door to Jehovah Witnesses any time soon unless they want me to break out my witches bible which I have done before. It was funny to see them run the other way.

The one thing about me is my beliefs are personal and private. What I do in my own home is my business and my business alone. It’s not my authority to go and spread the “word” of my beliefs and my convictions.

The other day I had the displeasure of listening to two women talk about their bible courses. The same women who sit all day long doing absolutely no work and gossip. Not for nothing but I think gossiping is far worse than sitting there and judging a person. People make money off from gossiping (The Star Magazine, Us Weekly, to name a few).

This to me are the worse people of humanity (yeah I’m judging). These are the same people who hate animals. But yet they love Jesus. Really? Do you think Jesus went off kicking a dog or eating a cat because he got hungry. Love man kind but look at this child being taught, “God hates fags, but yet he’s ever loving of all man.” #Contradiction – Great way to raise your child ain’t it. SMH.


I grew up Catholic. I was the family member who lived in the church, I sang in the choir and taught religion instruction. True story.

But then one day, something happened. I had questions, a lot of questions. Why were we born sinners? Why were we not worthy of God? Why was Jesus exactly killed? Why did the Catholics have a white Jesus and the Baptist version had him a tad bit darker?

Guess what? Yep. No one had an answer.

As I grew up and discovered the world around me, I began my journey in other religions and spiritual faiths. I stopped believing in the Jesus concept when I was 16 years old. Quite a long time for anyone to try and convince me otherwise. Which leads to someone recently who tried and told me I couldn’t just banter back and forth if I had a friend who believed in Jesus and she prayed for me. I had to go with one or the other.

“Really”, I said, “and who made up this rule?”

People who are real accept their defects and remember they are human with human emotions. Things happen in their lives because they make it happen. They’re not waiting for a God to make it happen. That’s like frying an egg on a hot summer day. Chances are the shit won’t fry.

e15a6467182c8b0596e6b2b70e24a47cThe flip side to these type of religious fanatics is they don’t know how to live and let live. So what if you have haters, so what if this person thinks they are better. So what? Do they pay your rent? Nope. Not a damn dime. But they want to sit there and infiltrate on your life with religious bullshit about being saved. Saved from what?

In my experience, people who are on a religious zeal will be your friend only to convert you and when you do or say something they don’t agree with, they cut you off because you’re evil and they can’t be influenced to the “dark side”.

The funny thing is, they are on the dark side. They are doing exactly what evil suggest. Gossipy, whiny and judgmental. Guess we all know where you’re going. LOL!


Until then.

Take care of you!

Marabelle Blue~


19 Kids and Counting – Out loud Thoughts of the Duggars

duggarsI usually wake up early in the morning about 7 am. During this time I feed my dogs and cats, mop up the floor and clean up any messes that happened in the middle of the night. Then I crawl back in the bed and tune to TLC where they show repeats of 19 Kids and Counting.

How on earth did I become addicted to this show? It’s not a major addiction but enough to peak my curiosity of the strangeness in this family.

I say strangeness without judgment, just the mere fact that this was not the way I lived my life so to me it’s strange.

Modesty. Something I never really was. I have big boobs and you know sometimes, they make an appearance. And believe me, I’m not one of those women that get mad when I man loses eye contact with what’s around him and leads to my boobs. No offense there. Also I own an adult magazine, which would go against the grain of what this family stands for. I never went on a date that was chaperoned, quite honestly, even though my parents didn’t like me growing up, they certainly were not there for any dates I had considering that once I turned 18, I was able to do almost whatever I wanted. And if you read through the lines, I didn’t get to anything until I was 18.

So now that you know a little bit about me, here’s why I think 19 Kids is so bizarre. This woman gives birth to 19 kids (obviously). They raise their children in the name of the Lord, Jesus Christ (still trying to figure out how a man became a lord but more on that in another post), they don’t believe in birth control, clearly and one of the daughters has been married off and pregnant already. I guess you start out young if you want to have a good round number of kids that can be a baseball team.

As I sit and watch some of the episodes I’m astonished at the rules that are place in these courtships,. Even courting alone, the man must ask the father, Jim Bob, permission to court his daughter and then moving forward must ask for her hand in marriage which happens rather quickly.

So during the courtship, the couple cannot hold hands, they can only do side hugs, a full on face to face hug is not allowed. And OH, no kissing, not until the wedding day. Romantic? No. Not in my opinion.

One of the daughter, Jill, who married Derrick, met him while he was living in Napal. Jill and her father took a trip there to meet him and Derrick asked her father for permission to court her. Jim Bob, had to make a quick decision as his wife was not there to consult with and gave Derrick his blessing. Whoopie!

Moving on. The day Jill and the whole entire family were waiting for Derrick at the airport, greeted Derrick with a full on hug. Uh oh.

The feedback was priceless. “Well other than they haven’t seen each other in two months, they just can’t let it happen again and “no hugging allowed, only side hugging”.

Makes me wonder if she got scolded for that, maybe reading a passage from the bible, that part about how you should only hug your fellow man from the side because if your body touches it just make spark up some horniness. Who knows.

As it was advertised in the ratchet publications, like US Weekly and Star Magazine, Jill’s wedding was a big deal. Then four weeks after this girl is married off, here she is pregnant. Well duh. No birth control that’s what usually happens.

I don’t know. I find the whole thing completely strange. But in the same note, I don’t. I completely understand. One of the things Michelle mentions (she’s the mother) that they home school their children.  With the way the world is today, if I had children, I would home school them too. Not because of anything else other than I want my child to be safe. I’m old school. If my child was hurt by another child, I would probably get my belt and beat the mother.

Minus the outrages church and bible beliefs, one of the things I do admire about this family is the love they have for one another. And watching this show makes me realize that I never had that “tightness” with my own family. I grew up with an angry and controlling father. I commend my father for standing up and being a man and fulfilling his responsibilities as a father because we all know that not many men do that. A perfect example is my sister’s husband, he’s good for sticking his dick to make himself feel good but not deal with the after effect that now you have children that rely on your guidance and presence.

This would beg the question, would this have made me a different person. Would I be a recovering addict/alcoholic? Would I own an adult publication, would I be the writer I am today? I don’t know. I can’t go back and change my family so we can have that closeness that the Duggers have and that’s really the only thing that I like about this family.

Otherwise the whole courtship thing, the chaperone, and not kissing before marriage is not natural. For the Duggars their life is based on what they believe the Lord wants for them. Hence the reason why they are home schooled so they aren’t influenced by outside entities that might deter them from shying away from the Lord. And why the girls are married off so young so they can procreate and have as many kids as they can so they can keep building on their community. I mean after all they will need more of them to marry each other off to make more.

Everyone is different and I get that but I’m also a romantic at heart. I believe that relationships should have the natural setting without feeling as though if you do things that are not allowed according to the “Lord” you will be punished. For me this is not natural. If there is a God, who loves unconditionally then there is no punishment for holding hands or hugging someone that you love.

Recently, Jessa sparked up some controversy with her facebook posts on God’s judgment. Yeah again this brings up that contradiction about how God loves unconditionally but if you engage in sex or porn or curse boy you will definitely feel the wrath of God.  Huh?

There was something that I saw not too long ago, probably on Facebook that said Jesus promoted Love not religion.

Religion is man-made. It’s the one thing that divides society. It’s the one thing that people get killed for and it’s the one thing people will die for.

We are people who enjoy love and being in love and that should never be wrong, no matter what you believe in.

With that being said, carry on Duggars!

Duck Dynasty vs. Free Speech

Reality television has afforded us to see how other people live in their personal lives and thoughts, all played out in front of the camera.

Having studied acting and being in front of the camera my questions has always been (when it came to reality TV) when do they say action and when do they say cut?

I guess it’s going to be as real as it can get, right?

So the big news in the media today is Phil Robertson and the disparaging comments he has made about gay people.

GLAAD as well as many other Gay and Lesbian Communities are in an outrage and rightly so.

I can’t say enough of, “In our day and age of technology”, either people sit and hide behind their computer to assassinate anyone they feel “entitled” to or you have these make-believe “celebrity” television personalities that open their mouth and speak without thinking. Just because you’re in reality television it doesn’t give anyone permission to run their mouths off on how other people live.

BUT they do!

Welcome to the real world darlings!

Someone made a comment today about how come no one came to Paula Dean’s defense because she used the “N” word.

Look there’s a double edge sword in everything we say and everything we do. Bottom line.

While I don’t agree with Paula, the fact remains that in New York City where our communities are working class and/or no class, the conversations among the young disgusts me to no end.

Just the other day I heard a woman yelling at her child and her exact words were, “What’s the matter with you my n***a, pay attention when I’m talking to you.”

Other conversations I’ve heard in and out of the Bronx, “yo my n***a, she was like….” or “yo my n****a, that play was hot”

My point being if you haven’t gotten it already, how can anyone be in an uproar over a word that is used time and time again. WHO GIVES A FUCK IF IT ENDS WITH AN “A” IT’S WRONG! PERIOD!

In all my years and my friends that I grew up with which were all black, I have never heard them speak this way and I’m sure I never will. Why? Because they respect themselves, as humans, as a community!

You can’t expect for people to respect you if you can’t respect yourself, in how you speak and how you carry yourself.

I’m a woman with a very strong Puerto Rican heritage. My father instilled in me to learn English correctly if not no one will respect you. He remains correct! And while people ask me where is my “accent” from, am I from California (no I’m not) but learning proper English was just as important to me as my first language, Spanish.

We can’t stop people from thinking a certain way and “Lord” knows what stigmas I get because I say I’m Puerto Rican. But I don’t care. Because those stigmas do not make me the woman that I am. I’m Human. A Woman. A Business Owner. A Writer. A Thinker. A Dreamer. A Sarcastic Bitch. Get it?

Now that I’ve made my point, lets get back to Mr. Phil Robertson and WHY WE SHOULD BE UPSET!

The Gay and Lesbian Community has come such a long way. In a time of the sexual revolution where everything was undercover and secretive, there weren’t so many outlets where someone who had “different” feelings can go and seek help or just even someone to talk to that can relate and say, it’s okay.

Who the fuck made us perfect? The Bible is packed with a bunch of lies that man has written to make society believe that if you do something out of the “norm” you will be damned to hell. Such words are away to get people to conform and that’s not what society is about.

We always keep forgetting why the Middle East is at war and probably will always be, #RELIGION

People use Religion to justify their own outrages sort of nonsense, to judge and to say “I am right and YOU are wrong.”

The Gay and Lesbian Community are tightly knit, they respect one another and have built an alliance within their own space where one can go and seek advice, guidance to find the freedom to live with their hearts and to accept who they are as humans and that not everyone will think or agree with what how they live.

When I first got clean and sober more than 22 years ago, I used to hear the term in meetings, lets agree to disagree.

Getting off drugs and alcohol was enough now people wanted to confuse the shit out of me with these terms.

Eventually I got it.

We will not always agree. We will always digress, we will always get better, think differently or maybe not. But what a concept it is when we just allow people to live their own lives and others can mind their own business.

I don’t know when this became such a difficult task.

Until then.

Marabelle Blue~

Breaking Amish LA

I just happened to catch some of the last episodes in a Breaking Amish LA marathon.

Interesting how television has evolved by taking people out of their element and watching what happens by dropping them into a big city.

Such as Breaking Amish LA.

While I’m not all too familiar with the Amish life, my basic understanding is they are highly religious, they have their own laws and they only stay with their own kind. Any participation outside of their world would probably get them shunned.

So why would anyone agree to this?

The answer is simple. In the world that we live in, we are meant to experience life in every aspect and the words in a book called a bible should never dictate anyone life’s choice.

Lets be clear, this is my personal opinion and believe, because I do not believe in the bible. While some passage inside are very nice and can help with affirmations, it’s not the book of the law for me. Therefore it does not dictate who I am as a person, as a woman, it does not define my career, what I choose to write about and how I express that.

I think it’s very important that we learn the errors of our ways without feeling as though we are going to be punished for every mistake. Lust is a natural human emotion as long as you do not push your lust on someone who does not want it.

Women have a choice on who they decide to share their bodies with.  Men get upset when women choose not to share their bodies with them. I can go to a whole list of reason but the point is simply respect other’s wishes on how they choose to live.

It’s so sad that something so simple has become so complicated in this day and age of our technology. But as our technology grows our human behavior becomes more complex. People still try to exert their control and/or their belief system in someone else’s throat refusing to learn and accept that it doesn’t work.

Other than watching the roundtable discussion after the show with a very horrible talk show host (right next to Andy Cohen), it seems that this group is still conflicted in the Amish lifestyle and having to venture out.

See what happens in cases like this and in most cases, we grow up with a foundation. A foundation that our family teaches us that we can rely on, namely them. As we grow up, depending on our upbringing, etc, sometimes, resentment, lack of tolerance towards certain family values can lead to rebellion and exploring what life has to offer.

While I can get into the statistics of crime and murders this is not what’s relevant to this article. What is important is that some of these people chose a life outside of being Amish while instilling a practice of some form of religion.

While I personally don’t believe that religion should define a relationship (I’ve said this before) I can’t understand why people still believe that living this “holy life” in the name of a fictitious “God” gives them a right to believe they are better than everyone else.

A contradiction to their bible thumping beliefs.

Good luck to those people who were on this show and may all their dreams come true, whatever that may be.

Until then.

Loves and Hugs,


An Open Letter to Kirk Cameron

On Monday, November 04, 2002 4:39:00 PM – I wrote a Feature Story titled “When God Steps In” – This was one of my favorite topics to discuss for a variety of reasons. One, religion is an order to control people; two, who told anyone there was a God, maybe it’s a Goddess (but why would anyone think that way); three, No one controls your destiny but you.

Christian Mingle site is a perfect example. God is waiting for you to find your perfect match. So…let’s say a woman meets a man that beats the crap out of her, is that still God’s match? Because God told you so?

I wrote this article because at the time certain past tense celebrities were coming out of the wood work to discuss their religious ideology due to past life “regressions”. Willie Aames, Tawny Kitaen, Vanity and Kirk Cameron (which oddly I thought it was Kurt).

One of the things I wrote in my article was this, “These bible thumping people come to this way of life as a form of running away from whom they truly are, and that is the difference between people who are kinks and accept and embrace their fetishes instead of running away from it. Kirk Cameron, from what I see on television is in absolute denial about himself.  If he turned gay tomorrow, I would not be surprised.  Running to God doesn’t mysteriously take away who you are and what you like and what turns you on.”, Marabelle Blue 2002 aka Miss Kink

With that being said….

Dear Kirk,

Once again, you have appeared to create your own spotlight to disparage Gay people in how they live and the choices they make. When I wrote that paragraph about you above, I think and almost ten years later I still believe that you are a Gay man.

There is nothing wrong with that.

However, there is something wrong when you stand there in a righteous manner, with religion as your salvation and the authority to deny the privilege of happiness to other people’s life choices.

Show me where there is this punishing God that will damn people to hell for choosing the one they love that just happens to be the same sex as they are. Show me where it say that being Gay is “unnatural” as you stated. Is there a stone it’s written on? Is there a scroll somewhere? Oh wait, don’t tell me the Bible. Kirk, are you aware that the bible was written by man and that no where it states any of its accuracies about Jesus and who he was.

Believe me when I tell you, if I raised my child to believe he was the son of God, he would believe that shit too.

How can you be surprised of the backlash of your comments about how people choose to live? What right does it give you? The Bible? Again let’s revisit comment up above.

Society today has taken things out of context to adhere to their own accord of what they believe to clear their conscience and then want to take those distorted sense of beliefs and hurt other people with it.

Kirk, let me remind you of someone. His name was Matthew Shepard. Does that name ring a bell? Let me refresh your memory. Matthew Shepard was tortured by two, sick, sadistic assholes who didn’t allow Matthew to be the person he was because it didn’t adhere to their “code of ethics” on how human beings should live.

It is people like YOU Mr. Kirk Cameron, that believes that in spreading your religious ideology will correct any behavior that YOU think is wrong.

What YOU think and what other people think or how they live doesn’t make them wrong. Murder is wrong, hate is wrong (on any fucking level), knocking on people’s door, spreading the “good word” is wrong. People need to learn how to mind their own damn business and spread something else, like being good to Mother Earth and mankind. That means RESPECTING other people’s values and judgments that doesn’t harm or intentionally hurt other people.

Do you think that’s what you’re doing? Do you think that by calling Gay people “unnatural” because YOUR religion tells you it’s wrong? Isn’t what you’re doing wrong? Oh wait it’s because you’re Christian so it makes it right? I keep forgetting that….amazing how one man name Jesus had a spiritual awakening oh so long along suddenly manifested into something out of control *cough cough tax free living cough cough*

I have a friend who is a lesbian and a mother. She is one of the greatest people I know and the best mother her daughter has. For many years she took abuse from an employer who praised her one day and treated the next day treated her like garbage, yelling and going off because he was in a bad mood. One day on one his bad moods, in the midst of his yelling, she got up and walked out. To everyone’s surprise, because she was such a passive person.

But…the day she walked out of that job was the day her life began and I am so proud of her.

Why am I so passionate about this?

Because one day I was that person who sat back and watched everyone be popular, speak their minds, laugh and be confident within their own skin. I was not like that. Instead I resorted to a life of drugs because I didn’t like myself. Thankfully through MY own accord, I made a choice to stop (20 years now my friend).

Long story short, I found myself, I found my voice, and I founded a magazine, Kink~E Magazine that celebrates all walks of life.

No I’m not a lesbian; however I am a human, who has compassion and empathy and respect for how other people live. I don’t live on the ideology of punishments from a God because of the way I live. I love Fetish, I love being kinky and in my world KinkE.  Those are MY choices.

Mr. Cameron, here is my piece of advice. Go back under the rock you crawled out of. You had a nice stint on Growing Pains. No one cares about your journey, clearly you have issues you haven’t grown out of yet. Now…grow the fuck up on out of here!

Until then.

Mz. Marabelle (don’t fuck with me) Blue