Married At First Sight – Cohabitation and Happy New Year

Ryan D. and Jaclyn


After Ryan and Jaclyn were able to establish a living situation, they consummated their relationship. However, this relationship didn’t start off as a romantic one.

When those doors opened up it was similar reaction to Jamie when she married Doug. Not a very happy one. And even though Jaclyn said, “I do”, inside she was screaming, “I don’t”. Makes me wonder why women continue to just say yes to something where they really want to say no.

Anyway, getting back to this couple, because they are reality television, I’m sure they had to sign some kind of disclosure saying they would stick with this for the next six weeks and even though a honeymoon can make everything exciting, reality is what sets in when the vacation is over and real life steps in.

For this couple things seems to be getting off on a good foot, however, because of Jaclyn’s very possessive and strong attitude, it seems that she tries to castrate Ryan by playing the man role too, instead of just letting Ryan be the man in the relationship.

Behavior like this for me is when someone is really not that into you and will play the role of, “let’s be buddies and hang out and get to know each other.” I think they had a show like this on Bravo who followed couples that were best of friends but one of them was secretly into the other….I don’t know whatever happened to that show. Bravo goes through shows, like ATL Housewives go through hair weaves.

I’ve been known to go out on dates with guys that I was not interested in and would take over the conversation to ensure that this will not go any further and they will remain in the friend zone. Since I don’t like to play games, rest assured, it ended that night when the date was over.

Ryan lived with his family and extremely close to them. Due to the loss of his sister and then his brother in law, he was raising his niece, basically stepping in as the parents this little girl lost. Having to make a move and be away from his family, Ryan was definitely going through withdrawal but seemed ready to make the compromise and sacrifice to co-habitat with his new wife.

For Jaclyn, who seemed to struggle with the new man in her life, started to see a different side of Ryan once they began to get their house in order.

While I agree with Dr. Joseph, there is a side of yourself you have to let go in order to allow someone in your life, you also have to do it with common sense. Just because a doctor told you that this is your ideal mate it doesn’t mean that’s necessarily true.

I think what is lacking in this relationship like the rest of the cast is the courting which seemed to take place with Cortney, Jason, Doug and Jamie. They all were very committed to making their relationships work which included romance.

I’m not really seeing that with this couple…for now at least. Jaclyn is a very outspoken woman and you know sometimes, guys don’t like that. While they like women who exude strength they certainly don’t like to look like an idiot.

New Year’s day, visiting her family, she made it a point to share that under no circumstances she wants to have a child after 35. And not saying this in private but saying this in front of her family.

I think in relationships, there are certain conversations you should have in private and not in front of family members. This was definitely not topic of discussion saved for family and friends.

Davina and Sean


The team of experts paired Davina and Sean on the main commonality that they were both bullied while growing up. Davina lives and owns an apartment in New York, which Sean owns a house in New Jersey. Both have agreed that for now living separate during certain days of the week while Sean goes to work, will just have to work for the time being. Even though Davina doesn’t like this idea, this is something that she’s temporarily dealing with only to appease Sean.

Here’s another couple with a situation where one loves living in New York while the other isn’t really having it. I think once someone lives in New Jersey and becomes accustomed to living a certain lifestyle, who really wants to live in the hustle of New York. If the man has to drive into work, who wants to drive back and spend an enormous amount of money for parking? Not ideal for New York City living.

Davina isn’t willing to make a compromise.

Sean made a private call from Dr. Joseph regarding their relationship how the chemistry was initially strong to now a friendship level of relationship.

While Dr. Joseph informs Sean to not be hard on himself on his feelings and anxiety, he should find understanding on himself and be accepting of what he’s feeling and find a solution through it.

I think Dr. Joseph is right, BUT, let’s be real here….I mean, this is reality television isn’t it?

Davina comes from a culture where most relationships are arranged, therefore there isn’t really a pursuit or courting. However, Davina who is Americanized and has exposure to American culture understands what is means to be courted or romanced. At least that is what we are taught. Just tune in to, “Say Yes to the Dress”, that’s all you hear and quite honestly that’s what women want. So what happens when you meet someone and marry them at first sight? Where is the romance? Sounds like a repeat of Ryan R. and Jaclyn.

Ryan D. and Jessica


Now this couple, I questioned on every episode. They did have sex the first night and I’m sure they plenty of sex during the honeymoon, but after the honeymoon, everything changed and things got pretty serious and pretty nasty in a matter of three short weeks.

Jessica is not a girl who communicates her feelings at all. She says she cooks but she doesn’t cook, she says she wants closet space but she doesn’t express that, she says the kitchen will always be clean but gets a nasty response in return. He gets angry because she irons on the bed, she’s tired of sushi, she’s mad because he took their wedding money for himself, oh and let’s forget how he thinks pierces are nasty or tacky and she took out her Monroe piercing to “make a change” but yet he has a shit load of tattoos. What the fuck?

Ryan is very ghetto when he talks to her and Jessica seems to get shut out when she does. They continue to have big arguments and even after celebrating New Years Eve together as a couple, I didn’t see a loving couple at all.

It’s almost as if when everything is good, it’s really good, but just for the time being and when everything is bad, it’s really bad.

So far the last few episodes ending with Happy New Year so far isn’t happy for all of the couples.

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Married at First Site Season Two – New Couples New Problems

married-at-first-sight-season-2-weddingsThe season starts with three new couples who are paired once again by the experts, Dr. Pepper Schwartz, Joe Cilona, Dr. Logan Levkoff, and spiritualist Greg Epstein.

The couples are Sean and Davina, Ryan R and Jaclyn and Ryan D and Jessica

How the experts paired these couples it seemed were based on past experiences.

For Sean and Davina, both experienced bullying in their childhood lives. Davina who is Indian and beautiful, I must add, was bullied as a child for being different. Her father had abandoned their family when she was growing up so she lacked that experience of having a man figure in her life, however, it seems it doesn’t affect who she is as a woman. Davina reminds me of me in some ways. Yes as a child I was bullied but I did have a present father growing up who never abandoned our family. She, like me, also prefers Caucasian men. Not sure if it’s a thing where she has the same reasons as to why she doesn’t like Indian men as the way I’m not attracted to Latin men.

Both she and Sean worked in the medical field, Davina in pharmaceuticals and Sean in trauma.

Ryan R and Jaclyn both said their “I do’s”, however Jaclyn who hasn’t had sex in more than two years has big reservations on Ryan R who’s really not attractive but not overly ugly. I can understand when she said that there’s something about his face that didn’t sit right with her. If you’re blind you would see it too. Definitely something going on with the front teeth, veneers of some sort so I get it. Sure I think it’s important to date someone with nice teeth, however it’s not a total deal breaker for me. If the man is good, makes money and can take care of you, she should give him a chance. I noticed though she does things that I normally would do when I’m not attracted to someone when I would go on a blind date and be a bit rambunctious – for example the way she threw his drink and told him he needs to drink this or in the next episode on their honey moon when she ordered the steaks for them instead of letting him order his own meal.

Ryan D and Jessica were both paired due to the same commonalities. They are both independent and have been single for a long time and family is very important. The stability of life is what’s important to the both of them.

The only couples that are immediately attracted to each other right now are Ryan D. and Jessica, Sean and Davina.  For Ryan R. and Jaclyn it seems that Ryan R. right now is not seeing that Jaclyn is really not that into him.

After the wedding, it was picture time and while all the couples seem happy in their pictures, it looks like Jaclyn’s brave face it starting to fail her as she’s becoming impatient and irritable. What I find strange is what Dr. Pepper Schwartz says physical match is not that important but trust in the experiment because they share essential values.


Why do people connect in the first place? Why is it that the other couples are getting along well? They are having that physical attraction. I believe, without that, tell me where the relationship is going. Granted he does not have to look like what women think Brad Pitt is, for me it’s Kyle Secor and Peter Coyote in his younger days, if there isn’t a physical attraction how can one move past that and fall in love with the other important qualities if you can’t see them on top of you.

For me I just can’t get past that. I have met the nicest of guys but if I was not psychically attracted to them, the men remained as friends and not anything more.

This season seems to also focus more on the family, along with their thoughts and feelings on the whole scenario on a blind arranged marriage.

While the couples are off after their husband/wife announcements and celebrating their nuptials at the reception, it’s now the time for the couples to be on their own in the hotel room.

Jaclyn is positive she will not be having sex with her husband Ryan, who’s mom mentioned earlier that she knows Jaclyn loves him as much as he loves her….? Um what?

Davina and Sean look like they are hitting it off very well, and Ryan D. and Jessica were sure not letting religion interfere with their relationship while Jaclyn struggles playing, “as if”, and wanting the experience to end.

Relationships take sacrifice, commitment, compromises and hard work. I can’t see someone making sacrifices for someone they barely know. Most people will chalk it up and say, “no love lost”, but will they ever learn anything from that experience by just taking the shortcut.

This is what people look for day in and day out. I have one person on my Facebook page that does nothing all day but bash women and talk about how he will only use them for sex. That’s the underlying notion that he really wants someone sincere and instead of putting himself out there and being honest, he’d rather sound like a scumbag.

Now while I can relate with is brutal honesty, the fact remains that what you put out there is what you will get.

For these couples, it’s just the beginning. And while some of them may be feeling the physical attraction, the question is will this outlive the reality of what it takes for a relationship to work and the one couple feeling the opposite, will they be the ones that will make a sacrifice to commit?

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In #Business? Say Goodbye to your Personal #Facebook Page!

facebook_banEarlier today (since yesterday) I’ve been listening to Krishna Das, “Pilgrim in the Heart”. This CD is different because Krishna shares the stories of his trip to India many years ago and his experiences with his Guru. There’s one particular story that always brings tears to my eyes, when he talks about his Maharaj-Ji. (The way I envision it, they’re all sitting around this earthly man with garbs of material wrapped around him as all who were present with him were looking for some kind of spiritual answer that would tell you what is the meaning of life.)

It probably was like that….but anyway in his story they were asking the Maharaj-Ji how does one meditate and his response was, “meditate like Christ”, of course there the confusion lied because no one still knew the answer until someone asked, “how did Christ meditate?”, Krishna Das said, Maharaj-Ji stopped and stared, he looked up he saw a bird flying and it felt as though the bird stood still and when he looked back at Maharaj-Ji he saw a tear falling down his cheek. They were probably there for a while waiting and when Maharaj-Ji came out of his meditation, he said, “he lost himself in love”.

For anyone who’s into Alternative beliefs and religions this will make sense.

For those reading and saying, “huh, how does this tie in with business and facebook?”, let me explain. 😉 (you know I gotta set the stage)

I realize a long time ago I broke one of my biggest rules of thumb is not to disclose anything personal on facebook. Like the way I bashed my sister’s husband and her kids. Sure it’s no secret I don’t like her husband for a variety of reasons. One them being, he’s not a responsible man. Selfish at best, never able to keep a roof over his family’s head for a long period of time.

Sadly, because of the last two years, living in an uncomfortable situation, I have taken a lot of the focus off my business and focused on stupid and mindless things, like arguing with people who spend all day (literally) on facebook putting up every post known to man, like fake news (as I spoke about in this post).

Because of this, I’m feeling as though I’ve been put in the category of “complaints”. “There she goes again…”, or why doesn’t she do something about it instead of crying about it.”

Yes, for anyone who follows, I am taking care of this issue from a legal standpoint I will leave it at that.

I’m finding my personal facebook page useless. Every time I decide to log in, if it not someone bragging about their gigs, it’s someone talking about someone else’s posts making judgement claims and they’re doing the SAME EXACT THING!

Look aren’t we all doing the same fucking shit? Isn’t someone judging someone else’s posts? Isn’t someone posting offense things that someone else will find completely hilarious? Since when does one fucking person get to say, “oh you’re wrong.” With the trial of likes from the stupid people that follow along with the “words of wisdom”.

Facebook useless I found this post online that I find completely appropriate. This is the way most people that don’t have a business are living. They treat their personal page as a business and depend on the likes they receive to justify their own existence, online!!!! These are what we call internet trolls. And YES they can be “productive” members of society who probably go out and work (maybe), but these are the people that believe that facebook people are their friends, are on their side, the people that support them. Yeah, maybe on #IRT (Internet Real Time and I just made that up LOL) – but will these same people have the same respect for you up close?

There’s definitely a difference when you meet people in person. Can you carry on the same conversation in person or will you just sit together and text each other?

In the world of business, social media presence is the epidemy of your business existence and how you brand yourself. You have to be that “disease”, in a good way, and spread your ideas, your presence and content to the world. Not everyone will like it, not everyone will agree, however, business doesn’t stop for one person. You’re not going to worry if that one person didn’t like your post. Your focus will be to review your data, what had the most likes? What engaged people to your page this day and not the next day? How can you enhance that engagement, what words, what tags, etc. This is what a real business person thinks about. From marketing to branding, facebook may have it’s perks when it comes to having a business page. See the difference?

When you’re out at an event networking, usually a person will ask you if you have a business card. If you hand in a card with missing info, let’s say a website or a LinkedIn page (not everyone may use Twitter), what do you think that person will ask? “Do you have a website or a social network page?” People who are interested will want to follow and engage with your business activities, either as someone who can collaborate with you or someone who’s just merely interested in what you have to offer.

With all of this in mind, I’m finding less and less use of my personal page. The other day I changed my hootsuite to post via my like pages instead of going to my personal pages. How much I love to share my new litter  of baby yorkie puppy pictures, I too, am holding down that fort by curbing the share on those pictures. While it’s great to share every now and then, my focus is my brand. Kink~E Magazine, KEM TopTalk, Events by MBlue and Divine Sinsations, my new reality magazine. Plus I can put a little bit more risque pictures on my page. 😉

There isn’t a reason why I should continue to partake in the nonsense I’ve put myself in for the last several months of arguing with people, commenting on the “know it all” people statuses that feel the need to correct you, because you think differently, people that take a joke way too far to the point of seriousness and accusations. It’s too much of a waste of time.

The fact is, in personal facebook pages, no one really cares (okay maybe 5% do). If your facebook friends are people and family, maybe that’s a different story. That’s a great way to share on-goings with relatives that may not live in driving distance. Yes, that makes sense.

But in the business way, I don’t find that having a personal page defends the purpose to promote your brand set with people that just want to be your “friend” so they can bash you the minute you’re human and share something other than being perfect. As the saying goes, you can perform excellence for many years but the minute you fuck up, that’s what people will remember you for.

So the true thanks goes to Krishna Das this morning, for waking me up and making me realize that life is more than just about sitting in front of a computer complaining. 😉

BTW: here are my facebook pages. Can’t leave that important info out!

Until then.

Loves and Hugs


When Did Everyone Become So Seriously Morbid?

MarabelleBlue Middle FingerI’m so confused.

Early this morning, someone on Facebook (no less and we should all know where this is going) about doing a magic trick with their mother’s ashes. Thinking that this is a joke because I know he would never do something like, following another jokester, I chimed in that he should use my sister’s husband because he is really of no use #runawayhusband #runawayfather

The response “MarabelleBlue not cool. That was not what the post intended”


Then why post something so god damn stupid!?!

I noticed within, I would say, maybe a five year proximity, people have gotten really stupid online. From the incorrect political posts, the fake websites with fake news that everyone seems to believe, from the jokes in poor tastes that everyone finds so damn funny BUT let you be the one to make that joke and YOU’RE WRONG!

Where are the priorities? So if you pass the joke from said nameless person it’s okay but if you’re the one making the joke you’re just a fucked up person.

Same person who doesn’t believe in God gets mad when sharing personal health issues and everyone says, “praying for you”, and the response is “Oh I don’t believe in God so I don’t need prayers…” (not verbatim)

But you get the gist of it.

If you don’t believe in God that’s one thing. Respect to you. I never judge anyone who’s an atheist.That is their prerogative, as anyone who believes in something else.  However, don’t get mad at people when they are sending good vibes via in prayer for your fucking well being. WTF?

People like this (not atheists), but the mindset are just outright asses. Trolls who want to ask for things or make statements and get mad at you when you chime in on their joke.

If the internet had a separation, it should be set up where people that are productive who are using the Internet for the right reasons has a server here and all other stupid assholes log in here and stay here.

In the bigger picture, while everyone else is chiming in on how Facebook is so applicable to your business. I find this to be utter bullshit. Really? Where? People will hit like and unlike for whatever reason, i.e., “posting too much, posting too little, this shit doesn’t apply to me, etc.”

Facebook has become the place of where hate lives. Where people go on and express their distaste for human life, to complain and share the most distasteful torture of animals as if posting this shit will help us acknowledge the crazy ass, stupid shit that goes on in this world we have no control over.

Not only does society need to get a life, they need to get a grip on prioritizing on what’s important.

If it’s important for you to troll the internet and post mindless, fake ass shit, I don’t need to have you on my Facebook page. If you can’t find any fucking humor in funny shit, then get the fuck out of my page. What the fuck are you doing there in the first place?

Do you support my business? Do you read the articles in my magazine that my writers take the time out to write? Do you listen to my radio show where I spend two hours interviewing people in the entertainment business using outlets to promote their projects?

If you can’t do that shit then get the fuck off my page.

Serious people have no place in my life. Miserable people definitely have no fucking place in my life!!

Life is about having fun and succeeding at your goals, paying it forward it you can, feeling good about your personal achievements and not having to say out loud, “look at me, I have one million views on Vine”, or some celeb is following you on Twitter like that make you relevant.

Really? What makes YOU relevant is YOU!

People are truly lost in the shuffle of the internet. Shame.

BTW I will no longer make business post on my personal FB page. That’s what the like pages are for. My personal page will be a dead page like some of the people on there.

Liven up….damn!


@KEMTopTalk Radio Show w/guest Indie Filmmaker Robert Perez Highlights 3/24/15

Tkemtoptalk-logoLG600his week’s show definitely had a different flavor. It can’t be all about sex. Well some of it was of course, this is KEMTopTalk.

Robert Perez, indie filmmaker and comedian shared his experience in the independent film industry and his projects. One he shared with me which was quite hilarious called Herb the Cannibal Perv – a twisted take on sex, women and cannibalism. Now while we discussed that some may not find it funny, the point to Robert’s types of films is to make it ridiculous and over the top therefore finding the humor in something that people don’t find typically humorous (in real life that is)

While everyone is obsessed with zombies wouldn’t that be the same thing?

Nelson from WTFtv joined in on the call who was also in Robert’s film shared his thoughts on what it takes to film indie films and they are not as easy as anyone think they may be. In other words, don’t go running to pick up a Galaxy and think you’re going to film the next big feature indie film.

Robert was a fantastic guest! Check out his youtube feature here:

And for more on Robert you can search him on youtube: VariationOnFilms  Facebook

Jorge joined in for the second half of the show as he and I discussed the whoa’s of reality television shows, Real Housewives of Atlanta starring Nene Leakes and the walking out of her own therapy, Pheadra and pending divorce from Apollo, Kandi and her not so nice pre-marital agreement and her shitting Kandi Coated NIghts show…etc. More on Kim and her fake sobriety, and Brandi Glanville running out of friends.

Honorable mentions: Sybian, Danny Blaq, Planet12Law, Howard Stern, George Takei, Moe The Monster, Angelo Lozada and Edwin Pagan.

The video I talked about on my radio show is here for your viewing pleasure 🙂 From T and A Flicks here is Final Notice starring Angel Lozada and directed by Sonia Gonzalez-Martinez:

Thanks to Nelson Torres @WTFtv for joining in and Jorge on sharing his thoughts on the reality shows discussed on the show. 

The fun sexual inudendo words today were “Pin” and “Plug” 

Twitter: @MarabelleBlue @KEMTopTalk @KinkEMagazine @dannyblaqvideos @Moe_the_Monster @Sybianmaker
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A Month Later

So I have to say this first. My trip to Boston was the best. After more than a year long courtship Robert was everything and more in what I was looking for in a man.

I think the first mistake I made was posting our pic on Facebook. The demon of the demise of relationship.

When I left we were not stop talking to each other….on Facebook.

I wasn’t too happy about our form of communication. I have had better communication with married men. Needless to say I did my best until it got the better of me.

One day missing him terribly I wrote a note in a card and mailed it to him. The next day or so lingering around FB I noticed there was activity on his page. Thinking at some point I would hear from him I didn’t and exploded.

Why the fuck….

Of course the day he gets the lovey dovey card is the day he decides to log in and sees my explosive email, which leads into this argument and then the “demise” of our relationship. Why did I put demise in quotation marks….because I don’t believe our relationship is over. We’ve had this argument before and he didn’t talk to me for months and this was before we met.

How many times did I explain that FB is not the place to maintain any form of communication in a relationship.

How many times I made suggestions on different ways to contact me.

How many times have we gotten into someone writing on my wall I have no interest in but I make on inquiry about someone on his page and I’m dead wrong all the way with no way of redeeming myself.

Yes if you’re reading this and thinking, ” this is immature”, you’re right….it is.

Robert is younger than me. While people try to rectify his behavior by his age I just find that certain things don’t rely on age but the level of maturity one has.

I would have never ran out of patience because I loved him and yes he loved me too.

So while it sucks that we are in this cycle of immature tactics and behavior I’m feeling bitter, unhappy and depressed.

I was so happy with Robert and without him I am not. Is this what love is? I forgot. The last time I was in love was in 2008. And who I called Mountain Man in my Bravenet blog that was a deep love that took years to recover from. I wonder at times if I have.

My life is different since I broke up with Mountain Man. There’s no going back although I have had visions of running into him what would happen. Would those feelings creep back. God I hope not. Maybe it’s a good thing that after all of this time that I don’t ever see him again.

However with Robert I feel completely different. I feel like I’m one half. I am still a whole woman but I’m missing my partner. The one that made me believe in love again. His kisses right now are just a memory hoping that one day soon I get to kiss him again.

The last email I sent Robert I poured my heart out. He read it 4/20 with no response….

So…what else is there to say other than I’m not interested in any man. No one stands up. If anyone thinks its so easy to find someone it’s not. There are plenty of men that try to talk to me. None of which hold any candle to what I’m looking for in a man. There’s only one.

I’m sad, depressed and all those negative feelings that come with missing someone.

I’m not perfect. I know that. But I also know I don’t deserve the I love you one day and let’s be friends the next day.

I deserve better. Always.