19 Kids and Counting – Out loud Thoughts of the Duggars

duggarsI usually wake up early in the morning about 7 am. During this time I feed my dogs and cats, mop up the floor and clean up any messes that happened in the middle of the night. Then I crawl back in the bed and tune to TLC where they show repeats of 19 Kids and Counting.

How on earth did I become addicted to this show? It’s not a major addiction but enough to peak my curiosity of the strangeness in this family.

I say strangeness without judgment, just the mere fact that this was not the way I lived my life so to me it’s strange.

Modesty. Something I never really was. I have big boobs and you know sometimes, they make an appearance. And believe me, I’m not one of those women that get mad when I man loses eye contact with what’s around him and leads to my boobs. No offense there. Also I own an adult magazine, which would go against the grain of what this family stands for. I never went on a date that was chaperoned, quite honestly, even though my parents didn’t like me growing up, they certainly were not there for any dates I had considering that once I turned 18, I was able to do almost whatever I wanted. And if you read through the lines, I didn’t get to anything until I was 18.

So now that you know a little bit about me, here’s why I think 19 Kids is so bizarre. This woman gives birth to 19 kids (obviously). They raise their children in the name of the Lord, Jesus Christ (still trying to figure out how a man became a lord but more on that in another post), they don’t believe in birth control, clearly and one of the daughters has been married off and pregnant already. I guess you start out young if you want to have a good round number of kids that can be a baseball team.

As I sit and watch some of the episodes I’m astonished at the rules that are place in these courtships,. Even courting alone, the man must ask the father, Jim Bob, permission to court his daughter and then moving forward must ask for her hand in marriage which happens rather quickly.

So during the courtship, the couple cannot hold hands, they can only do side hugs, a full on face to face hug is not allowed. And OH, no kissing, not until the wedding day. Romantic? No. Not in my opinion.

One of the daughter, Jill, who married Derrick, met him while he was living in Napal. Jill and her father took a trip there to meet him and Derrick asked her father for permission to court her. Jim Bob, had to make a quick decision as his wife was not there to consult with and gave Derrick his blessing. Whoopie!

Moving on. The day Jill and the whole entire family were waiting for Derrick at the airport, greeted Derrick with a full on hug. Uh oh.

The feedback was priceless. “Well other than they haven’t seen each other in two months, they just can’t let it happen again and “no hugging allowed, only side hugging”.

Makes me wonder if she got scolded for that, maybe reading a passage from the bible, that part about how you should only hug your fellow man from the side because if your body touches it just make spark up some horniness. Who knows.

As it was advertised in the ratchet publications, like US Weekly and Star Magazine, Jill’s wedding was a big deal. Then four weeks after this girl is married off, here she is pregnant. Well duh. No birth control that’s what usually happens.

I don’t know. I find the whole thing completely strange. But in the same note, I don’t. I completely understand. One of the things Michelle mentions (she’s the mother) that they home school their children.  With the way the world is today, if I had children, I would home school them too. Not because of anything else other than I want my child to be safe. I’m old school. If my child was hurt by another child, I would probably get my belt and beat the mother.

Minus the outrages church and bible beliefs, one of the things I do admire about this family is the love they have for one another. And watching this show makes me realize that I never had that “tightness” with my own family. I grew up with an angry and controlling father. I commend my father for standing up and being a man and fulfilling his responsibilities as a father because we all know that not many men do that. A perfect example is my sister’s husband, he’s good for sticking his dick to make himself feel good but not deal with the after effect that now you have children that rely on your guidance and presence.

This would beg the question, would this have made me a different person. Would I be a recovering addict/alcoholic? Would I own an adult publication, would I be the writer I am today? I don’t know. I can’t go back and change my family so we can have that closeness that the Duggers have and that’s really the only thing that I like about this family.

Otherwise the whole courtship thing, the chaperone, and not kissing before marriage is not natural. For the Duggars their life is based on what they believe the Lord wants for them. Hence the reason why they are home schooled so they aren’t influenced by outside entities that might deter them from shying away from the Lord. And why the girls are married off so young so they can procreate and have as many kids as they can so they can keep building on their community. I mean after all they will need more of them to marry each other off to make more.

Everyone is different and I get that but I’m also a romantic at heart. I believe that relationships should have the natural setting without feeling as though if you do things that are not allowed according to the “Lord” you will be punished. For me this is not natural. If there is a God, who loves unconditionally then there is no punishment for holding hands or hugging someone that you love.

Recently, Jessa sparked up some controversy with her facebook posts on God’s judgment. Yeah again this brings up that contradiction about how God loves unconditionally but if you engage in sex or porn or curse boy you will definitely feel the wrath of God.  Huh?

There was something that I saw not too long ago, probably on Facebook that said Jesus promoted Love not religion.

Religion is man-made. It’s the one thing that divides society. It’s the one thing that people get killed for and it’s the one thing people will die for.

We are people who enjoy love and being in love and that should never be wrong, no matter what you believe in.

With that being said, carry on Duggars!

The Bachelor @JimmyKimmel Special @c_soules

The Bachelor E3 – The Jimmy Kimmel Special

Jimmy Kimmel looking very intent on making sure he hits every spot on Chris Soules (lol)

Comedian and talk show host Jimmy Kimmel takes over week three of the bachelor which is almost appropriate because Jimmy has a lot to say about what happens the show and making predictions although I think he gets his predictions from reality Steve.
While making priceless jokes, the girls were actually happy to see him and took over Chris Harrison’s job which was also pretty funny. You know if for any reason Chris Harrison couldn’t do a season, Jimmy Kimmel would be a great replacement as he will keep the humor steady in this already comedic show.
Before the date card is given to the ladies, Jimmy pulls out a swear jar explaining the word ‘amazing’ is used quite often so in lieu of keeping count of the word, everyone that uses it has to put a dollar in the jar.
The date card is disbursed with dancer Kaitlyn to start things off with the first one on one date.
Amazing…
Unbeknownst to Farmer Chris and Kaitlyn, Jimmy Kimmel would be in control of their date and upon arrival at Costco’s, Jimmy supplied them with a grocery list of things they must pick up for their date.

Although a highly unconventional date for the Bachelor since most of all the dates are based on glamour, Kaitlyn did make valid points regarding their date, bringing the reality aspect to what they may be doing in real life which would be shopping….?
When they arrived back at the house, and engaged in conversation, Jimmy shows up and becomes part of the date. Of course one of the first things he asks is about the fantasy suite and the unspoken rule that no one is to disclosed if the couples have sex. Come on….we all know they do. Look at Andi – she had sex with Nick but picked Josh because she was convinced at some point he was going to be into her. Jimmy, in his “manly show” ways, made a lot of jokes to Chris that he should have sex with all of the women before he picks one.
Back at the house, the new date card comes in for the group date as follows:
Britt, Jillian, Becca, Tracy, Mackenzie, Kelsey, Amber, Ashley S., Juelia, Samantha, Nikki, and Carly.
…And on the date with Kaitlyn, Chris and Jimmy, Chris (during his interview) talked about how attracted he is to Kaitlyn and the qualities she possesses. While in the pool in their intimate setting and kissing, the camera pans the camera over to the right and there’s Jimmy Kimmel is on the other side of the pool having his champagne and enjoying the view.

Now it’s time for the group date which Jimmy Kimmel informs the ladies that this date will consist of farm work more like an obstacle course of farming. He gave specific instructions to the girls on what they need to do the first thing they need to do is milk a goat and drink some of the milk (which I’m not sure that’s even kosher or safe to drink), after that they had to shovel manure and chase a pig. Carly who didn’t get a date last week was on this group date and mentioned that she was allergic to goats milk but she was still going to drink it anyway I don’t know if that’s a stupid move but if you’re allergic to something chances are you shouldn’t be eating or drinking it. I guess when you come in with your toy karaoke machine, anything is to be expected from Carly.
Carly ends up winning the race and they take photos as the Farmer and wife American Gothic picture. The picture couldn’t be complete without Jimmy Kimmel and Chris Soules as the American Gothic couple part two.
By this point I’ve lost count on how many ‘amazing’ were said, but I do know they missed one with Becca which was later down the line.
After the group festivities, the girls are all dressed and ready to compete for Chris’ time and make out.
Carly grabs him first, now feeling confident that she’s in the game as a result of not having time with him on the episode before and she makes his speech I’m a man you’re a woman blah blah blah and makes out with him.
Amber who’s also feeling super confident has her time with Chris and plays, “let’s pretend to slow dance without music” and they kiss, and it suddenly becomes the repeat of Juan Pablo when his tongue was in everyone’s mouth too. As a matter of fact, they should have had JP for this season to help Farmer Chris decide who the better kisser is.
McKenzie’s, the youngest out of all the ladies, was noticeably upset at all the kissing, as she’s still in her head that she got the first kiss. When she gets her time with him she confronts him and asks why was he kissing everyone on this group date. The look on the farmer’s face was priceless. Yes, why was he kissing everyone? In the past seasons, (except for JP) I can’t recall where everyone was kissing everyone so early on, well maybe Bob Guiny.
When Becca had her one-on-one time with Chris, Becca mentions that their conversations seem effortless. She also confides with him by telling him she would have not done the Bachelor if it were anyone else but him. Watching him last season, she saw he would be the ideal person to bring home to her family. (She did say amazing twice). And while the music is heightening and the scenery is to perfection, they are locked eyes, holding hands, and as they draw closer, they….hug. Were you waiting for a kiss? My thoughts on Becca, I like her. She turned the tables when she said that she would have not come on to the show if it were not him as the Bachelor. Yes while Chris does hand out the roses and it’s about who stays and who goes, just as Andi didn’t feel that Juan Pablo was a good choice for her, she chose to leave, any one of these women can do that. But you know in reality television every woman wants their spotlight. Right now I’m placing my bet on Becca to be one of the top contenders.
While all is well on the group date, back at the house, fertility nurse, Whitney was complaining that she hadn’t gotten one on one time with Chris and when the date card arrives, guess who’s name is read…of course Whiney, I mean Whitney.
Now back at the group date, Chris tells the ladies how he had a good time with everybody, but he gives the rose to someone that he said he wanted to have a further connection with and he gave the rose to Becca, probably the only girl that he didn’t make out with that he had one on one time with.
Whitney who spent most of her time complaining she didn’t get any one on one time with him finally has her date with Chris. There’s something about Whitney where her conversations seems forced and phony. While they are talking Chris mentions how important it is to him that he is with someone who is spontaneous, who can work a crowd or be comfortable in a party or casual setting.
And then….how convenient because here’s a wedding party that strolls down from the hill they are sitting from. Whitney who immediately notices that it’s a wedding party suggest they crash the party. Really? Really….
 At the wedding, Whitney suggests that if anyone recognizes him they should pretend they are engaged so no one suspects anything and to let the guests know the must keep top secret. My thoughts on Whitney, I’m not a fan and here’s why. This is a woman whose meeting couples day in and day out helping them have babies. She’s 29 years old and this is about the age where women start to freak out thinking if they don’t hurry up and get married, their eggs will dry up and they will die an old lady with cats.
I really hate this concept. I would like to believe as women we are allowed to make out own choices. And if a woman decides that she does not want to marry nor have children, why is she looked up as a reject? Very stupid thinking if you ask me.
What’s even more stupid is Whitney not really looking as she’s thinking anything through. More like, I will do whatever he wants just so I can get that ring.
After they crash the wedding and walk away he comes back with the rose exclaiming that Whitney absolutely made his day and he asked her if she will accept the rose. Of course she will. Time is of the essence for Whitney. SMH

On the flip side Juelia confides with the other ladies about the incident that happened with her husband committing suicide. I have a lot of issues with this. First, I’m not sure why casting felt the need to choose her. The woman clearly is still reeling from the loss of her husband. Not only the loss but how it happened still plagues her. It’s not right that a woman with so much pain give herself to a guy who will basically spend most of his time comforting her loss instead of being an equal partner.  (note: Apparently, Chris had found out through one or more the women gossiping about her)
I have to say while I empathize with her story, the fact of the matter is, while I was sitting here watching, my eyes were rolling around because it’s so dramatic and so unnecessary. It was just over-the-top and furthermore with the way she was crying, there is no way I can see any kind of relationship developing with Chris. This is this kind of stuff that you see in soap operas for pure entertainment and nothing more. Sad to see that The Bachelor continues to use women’s pain as the, “coming up next”, for their features on this show.
Britt continues to hang out all him and making out with him every chance that she gets, because she wants to feel some sense of security. Jade, the cosmetics girl runs and take him inside his house to make with out with him. Ashley I. is completely losing her mind and Jillian is walking around half naked looking for him. Sounds like a naked retreat if you ask me.
When Jade and Chris get back out of the room Jillian is in the hot tub like waiting for them and Ashley I. still running around like a chicken without a head because she needs that one on one time STAT! While the rest of the girls are looking for him they don’t realized that he’s with Jade making out on the bed and when they finally emerge, Chris goes in the hottub where Jillian monopolizes the whole time as she refused to leave when the girls started to gather around trying to get that one on one time.
A little bit about Ashley I…she’s a virgin. That’s not to say that she doesn’t have experience in relationships but in her mind, she seems to be stuck that if her tongue is not in Chris’ mouth she doesn’t stand a chance being with him and this gives her some distorted confidence that it does. She too is highly emotional and over the top. Have you noticed when she does kiss Chris, it’s almost awkward and unnatural.
And the roses goes to:
Jade
Samantha
Juelia
McKenzie
Kelsey
Britt
Megan
Carly
Ashley S. the lunatic
Nikki
Jillian
Ashley I.
The ladies who received roses on dates: Becca, Whitney and Kaitlyn

The most notable that didn’t get a rose was Amber – fake music, fake dancing, maybe the kissing was fake on Chris’ part too, a perfect example of why kissing doesn’t guarantee a rose. There was clearly no romantic connection but that didn’t stop Chris from putting his tongue in her mouth. Amber’s rejection on interview was visible without her saying a word and kudos to her that she choose not to talk and walk away and savor those tears in private. I felt really bad for her. Rejection is never the greatest feeling in the world and even worse when exposed on national television. I’m glad she walked away.
But there was one that went away “crying” in the limo and that was Jimmy Kimmel’s as Chris Harrison informed him that he was no longer needed. Chris Harrison definitely has a great sense of comedic humor and I thought this was a very good episode definitely bought something different into the show even though the one thing that wasn’t different was a new set of pathetic women.

The Bachelor Farmer Chris Soules E2 @c_soules

While everyone is celebrating at the rose ceremony that they’ve surpassed the first of the wars of the roses, yoga teacher Kimberly was speaking off camera and walks away back to the house to fetch Chris to give her a chance. Chris who seems to be the most kind, goes outside to talk to her all the while the girls are having a cow and suddenly becoming possessive of him. Because there are certain “rules” (and I use the term loosely) Farmer Chris goes back to Chris Harrison to have a conversation with him regarding Kimberly.
While he thought this may be unconventional, he decided to give her a chance. I mean he did give Tara the drunk a chance why not someone who flew from the East Coast who didn’t behave like an ass.
Needless to say, he did give her a chance while she anticipated a rose for the next ceremony. So in other words she was allowed to stay even though she didn’t have a rose.
Quite unconventional you might ask. Remember when Chris Bukowski came by surprise to meet Andi and Chris Harrison stopped him practically at the foot of the hill where is located telling him he could not meet Andi. Even while telling Andi to give her the “option”, he made sure Bukowski wasn’t even given a chance after Chris Harrison threw him under the bus. We all know why Chris Harrison was extremely protective of Andi, he liked her. And I wouldn’t be surprised that he was secretly jumping for joy when the announcement came out when Andi and Josh broke up. I mean really. Josh was not a catch at all and we all know the reason why Andi choose him, not only was she attracted to him, we always want something that doesn’t want us. Isn’t that the ways of relationships? (“Yes please”)
The next day, after all of the Kimberly “save”, Chris Harrison meets up with the girls to talk to them about the “rules”. He lets them know Chris living in the house down the driveway urges them to get as much time as they can with him that there are no rules.

Now we all know what that means….we will find a lot of these girls sneaking out to see him especially if he’s had other dates and they didn’t have one on one time with him. Even knowing this of course there will be backlash because that’s just the nature of this show.
After his spiel, he drops off the first date card which the first of the group dates and the attendees are as follows:
Jade, Tandra, Ashley, McKenzie, Kimberly, and Tara.
Now this is Kimberly’s opportunity to get to know Chris within a small group setting and the option to win a rose. Some girls expressed their discontentment that Kimberly gets to go out on this date which they shouldn’t be upset that is the whole point. However, I  can understand because if Kimberly gets a rose and they don’t, it has nothing to do with who is on the date but the chemistry that is generating on each date.
The girls are taken to TenTen Wilshire where the date card had said show me your country.  So basically it’s a pool party and how convenient they all have the bikini underneath their clothes.
Being bold, Kimberly pulls him aside and suggest that they start all over again like a first meeting and oh how cute, Chris gets up and walks into the room where she is and acts like he’s meeting her for the first time.
While the group date is going on, two of the girls decided to go to Chris’s house to see what the house looks like.
One of the girls puts Chris’s helmet on to test it out and she bangs her head in the wall, on the fridge and on the wood wall, she’s an idiot.
Back at the group date, they ladies and Chris all leave the pool party in their bikini’s walking down LA streets, over to a set of tractor-trailers which means that not only are they going to ride these in their bikinis, clearly this was going to be a contest of some sort.
Tara, our drunken country girl was super excited, as she is purely convinced that this man is going to be her husband and expresses how lucky she was to have received a rose due to she felt she was skating on thin ice thanks to her inebriated escapade during the rose ceremony.
And the race begins! But guess what? What I’m sure the girls did not expect, these tractors are snails and the first girl to the finish line wins one on one time with Farmer Chris.
Ashley I. ended up winning the race, the freelance journalist from Wayne New Jersey and you can tell that she’s from Jersey because of all the heavy make up around her eyes and the way she wears her hair and the way she talks. Anyone who watches the Housewives of New Jersey, you can hear her accent from three thousand miles away.
Now here’s my take on Ashley. This girl is not a good fit for him at all. She’s not realistic in her goals of what she believes a relationship should be. She’s also a virgin. Not that that’s anything that should be held against her, but her lack of experience and her youth will have her looking for more dick once she gets a taste of it. Believe me when I tell you, we are all creatures of habit. One dick experience will not be enough.
 Meanwhile back at the house all the girls are waiting for the next date card, Juelia is talking to the other ladies about what she plans on sharing with Farmer Chris. The first being she has a daughter, Ireland, and second that her child’s father killed himself not too long after their child was born. And now the waterworks begins.
So while she’s busy crying through the telling of the story, she brings up a point on how she feels obligated to tell Farmer Chris and this is what makes this show “sensational”.
The whole dramatic aspect of, “I have to tell a guy certain things so that it’s not a secret or I have to spill my guts”, the bottom line is in real life nobody feels the need to spill their guts all in one shot, but because this is reality TV this is what they’re told to say to make it good. Clearly, and in all respect for Juelia, this is not a person who’s prepared to be in a relationship. Death of a spouse is a big deal and while people move on with their lives as one should, the waterworks were too heavy for me to believe that this woman is prepared to be in a serious relationship and uproot her life to another state with her child. What are they going to do? Discuss her dead husband to a child that will never know her father?
Meanwhile, Ashley I. and Chris are spending some time together because she won the tractor-trailer race. I don’t think that there’s any chemistry between Chris and Ashley I. She seems to be forcing herself on Chris and her kisses seem unnatural. Not only is she a virgin but she does not know the art of kissing. This wasn’t a traditional one on one more like she won the race so she had uncharted time without disruptions.
Chris expressed his feelings in regards to the awkward situation of the group date with the six girls and he wanted to finish off the night dating one girl that that girl ended up being McKenzie. Surprise, surprise! Did Ashely I. think this was going to be her magical night as she was sent packing back the mansion with the rest of the girls? The season is being set to expect the unexpected.
Now the five girls that are left on the group date are left sitting and not very happy but no rose has been given out…yet.  Tara, who got a reprieve, seems to be taking this extremely difficult clearly this is a woman who has broken heart issues and takes everything literally.
Ashley I. was hoping to get the rest of the evening with him but I knew that wasn’t going to happen because he just doesn’t seem in to her and she seems too forceful.
Chris, now alone with his one to one with McKenzie, finds himself engaged in weird conversations, like how she said she likes guys with big noses then she asked him if he believes in aliens. I’m sure that now he sitting there regretting he picked for the date. This is the same girl who has a child and she’s a child herself…isn’t she 21 years old?
Nevertheless, Chris feels they have a lot in common, especially after she discusses on having a son, being a single mom and for some odd reason he ends up giving her a rose so for right now he’s clueless and I think it’s okay because usually the first date never outlives the rest of the season.
A new date card comes in and it’s for Megan and she’s thinking it’s a note card or a love note card I don’t understand some women in here. Hello!!! When a date card comes in with your name it means you’re going out on a date. Sheesh.
As the episode wears on, McKenzie’s shares her date with the other ladies and admits that she got the first kiss. Little does anyone know that on that first night of meeting Britt actually got the first kiss.
Chris comes over to pick up Megan for their one-on-one date and of course all the girls are very giddy and beside themselves. What a lot of the girls don’t understand usually the girls that go on a date early on usually miss out later on because a connection could build up much stronger where he will lose interest and pursue the most current. At least this is what has been apparent season after season.
They drive to an airport where there’s a small aircraft waiting for them heading to I’m not sure where.
The plane lands in Las Vegas and from there they jet on a helicopter to the Grand Canyon’s breath taking views where a picnic awaits them. Let us remind ourselves that The Bachelor series will feature all of these trips with views to die for where anyone can be infatuated easily. It’s the survival of the relationship when they can live in real life with no cameras following them.
While sharing a meal Megan goes on to tell Chris three days after she had received a phone call from the bachelor casting people her father had passed away and it just makes me think how much drama these women have. The casting agency must know all of their dramatic stuff so that they could put it in the forefront and this is probably why the fatality rate of the relationship is higher than it being successful and finding less needy women who are 25 and thinking if they don’t get married and have children within a three year span all will be lost and they will be regarded as a failure.
I remember in the in the fourth season of the Bachelor with Bob Guiney. Right down to the wire, Meredith gets a call that one of her family members passed away. Now through no fault of her own, Bob Guiney was not prepared to handle such devastation, let alone still in the process of getting to know here and the three other women that were left. Because of this he ended up sending her home, advising her that it was best that she’d be with her family.
Chris goes into a similar spiel that he gave McKenzie and asked her if she will accept the rose that he had for her and of course she does. No one will turn down a rose in this joint. LOL
The group date card arrives and the names are as follows:
Kelsey, Trina, Alyssa, Tracie, Jillian, Becca, Amber, Ashlee S, Juelia, Kaitlyn and Britt. Date card reads “till us death do us part”.
Later that evening, the limo pulled into what looks like a dilapidated building it’s a very dark and they’re basically in the middle of nowhere.
All of the sudden zombies appear around the limo basically scaring the shit out of all of them which was pretty funny and then Chis opens the car door. They look so petrified that one of them took a drink before she headed out of the car was hilarious.
The game they are about to play is paintball and the target are zombies. They have to split into teams and I’m gathering the team that wins is the one that gets to spend time with him.
Ashley starts getting technical because she thinks that you have to shoot your selves and not the zombies I’m not sure why she’s on the show. I wasn’t sure what to make of this zombie hunt and Ashley is walking around like the terminator which probably now makes sense thinking back on this episode. I guess we all would want to know how a woman will react with a “gun” in her hand. If not it seems it’s all about the frree alcohol because that’s what the focus seems to be.
 Kaitlyn, the dancer, had some one-on-one time with Chris talking about the breakdancing and the dancing that they did in etc. etc. she goes in to talk about her last relationship and how she lived out of the country and Chris feeling like wow she does great smart and sassy girl what would she want with me etc. etc. and then they go and kiss. He seems to be kissing everybody now.
I think Ashley forgot to take her medication and he definitely made a mistake picking her over the yoga teacher. And as the dates continue, Ashley seems to be all over the place. I don’t know if the whole situation has gotten the better of her (if there is a better), while Chris was in the middle of interviewing she comes in and she starts talking to him and he seems concerned. I’m left confused watching this debacle because I don’t know if she’s acting or there’s something quite not right with this woman. Chris says that she’s a unique girl it’s more like uniquely crazy.
Britt, who pulled him aside, has made it a point to keep the relationship alive from their first kiss on the first episode but when he hands out the rose he gives it to Kaitlyn.

Within the second cocktail party the girls are asking who has roses so far it’s McKenzie, Kaitlyn and Megan, leaving the rest of the ladies anxious because they don’t want to go home, name Kimberly who did not receive a rose on the initial group date.

Whitney who’s banking on a rose gives him a bottle of whiskey so that he would have some recollection of who she is and telling him that she is looking forward to building a journey with him.
These are notes I made while watching: Ashley I is a virgin. When she pulls Chris’s side to talk to him, her conversations remain to be seen, when all she wants to do is kiss which she doesn’t seem to be doing very well. I don’t know, but that was probably one of the worst and awkward kisses I’ve ever seen in my life. Don’t know why Britt is crying as far as I’m concerned she has nothing to worry about I don’t think that Ashley I is going to last very long, Jordan, also continues to make a fool out of herself too. I’m not sure why these girls are crying like they just invested a lifetime with Farmer Chris and this is only episode two. Makes me wonder what they are really crying about…is it Chris or the mere fact they won’t be on television.
And the roses goes to! Rose ceremony number two:
Britt
Ashley I.
Trina
Kelsey
Samantha
Juelia (for some reason Jillian who was standing in front of Juelia tripped and then busted out laughing)
Amber
Tracy
Jillian
Jade
Nikki
Becca
Carly
Whitney
Chris ends up giving the final rose to crazy Ashley S. and not to Kimberly the yoga teacher which makes me wonder what the fuck is going on in the Farmer’s mind.

The most notable who did not get a rose:
Tara is beside herself in tears.
Jordan gave him a very unusual bro hug like “see ya around”.
Kimberly, who didn’t make a beeline back to house, is not coming back this time.
I think the idea to this show is very sad because you watch these women walking away hysterical crying thinking that it was them who did something wrong and most times it’s not.
As for Kimberly, I’m not sure why Farmer Chris would opt out of choosing her and keeping Ashley S. The woman is not all there and clearly there’s no connection, other than her “crazy” is good for television.

Introducing Farmer Chris Soules @c_soules – The Bachelor Season 19

The show finally takes off with Chris talking about his life and his farm life, the excitement of meeting 25 women as he prepares for this season as the new Bachelor.
As the girls prepare in the first limo they’re excited to meet him they come out as follows:
Limo number one:
Britt 27 – Long hug and a lot of heavy breathing, extremely emotional
Whitney 29 – fertility nurse
Kelsey 28 – school counselor
Megan 24 – make up artist
Ashley I 26 – freelance journalist
Limo number two:
Trina 33 – special education teacher
Reegan 28 – donate tissue specialist- she bought a fake heart I thought that was pretty tacky.
Tara 26 – sport fishing enthusiasts comes in with shorts boots and a plaid shirt
And when she walked in all the girls looked at her like there was something wrong with her and there was absolutely nothing wrong with her. But later went to one of the rooms and changed to a black dress and got into the limo again and reintroduced herself (I can only gather producers ideas)
Amber 29 – bartender with the stupid teddy bear.
Nikki 26 – former cheerleader
Limo number three:
Amanda 24 the ballet teacher that knows nothing and does nothing and lids for free with her mother
Jillian 25 – news reporter
McKenzie 21 – the mother of a one-year-old child
Ashley S 24 – hairstylist Brooklyn New York
Kaitlyn 29 – dance instructor – and she said something really derogatory that just took Chris aback.
Chris Harrison comes in and tells Chris to go back and meet the girls that have come in to meet him and there’s only 15 girls so everybody’s confused on some of the girls are feeling relieved because the crowd is so small and little do they know that there’s 15 more girls that are coming in.
The first conversation he has is with Britt and he seems to have a strong connection with her. But she’s talking about Iowa like she really is interested and I don’t think she is. My own personal opinion, someone who comes from Hollywood California, sooner or later they’re going to get bored. They were so deep in their conversation that at some point they were looking at each other like they were going to kiss but they didn’t.
It’s barely through half of the episode and Chris Harrison brings out the first impression rose (and the other women haven’t even arrived yet), cutting back to the “red carpet”, live show where the audience was watching the first episode, Chris Harrison takes comments from the audience. I ended up fast forwarding that part.
Amanda, the ballet instructor, who initially greeted him by making him turn around and covering his eyes when she handed him a note that he had secret admirer, still had not known she was the secret admirer until they started talking. I’m not sure about her. I’m confused as to why at some point that she was talking and her eyes seemed to open wider and wider and then the camera panned right into her eyes like she was a crazy person. Didn’t her mother say not to embarrass her.
While the conversation and drinks are flowing, Chris Harrison comes back in to grab Chris and gives him the news that there are fifteen more girls to meet.  Now the other fifteen girls are seen another limo pull in and they are losing their fucking minds.
Limo number four
Samantha 27 fashion designer
Michelle 25 wedding cake decorator
Juelia 30 aesthetician i’m not sure why they have to spell a normal name fucked up
Becca 25 chiropractor assistant
Tandra 30 executive assistant came in on a motorcycle and she’s hot
 Limo number five
 Alissa 24 flight attendant
Jordan 24 student
Nicole 31 real estate agent and she’s wearing a fucking pig nose why I don’t know
She said to make him feel at home who does that fucking idiot she’s never going to live that shit down.
Britney 26 WWE diva in training
Carly 29 cruise entertainer comes in with a fucking microphone with mini speaker sounding like an asshole. Chris did not look impressed at all (but later was chosen in the rose ceremony)
Limo number six
Tracy 29 fourth-grade teacher
Bow 25 plus size model
Kimberly 28 yoga instructor
Kara 25 high school soccer teacher
Jade 28 cosmetics developer sparkle there
Now that Chris has met all of the girls he begins the daunted tasks of getting to know the ladies as each one kicks the other out to get to know him. Chris Harrison advises him that there will be a rose ceremony, get to know the girls, talk to them and then decipher who is best for him, at least in this round.
As he’s talking to the women, Kaitlin is having a conversation with him and I guess she decides to teach him how to dance. There’s something very ghetto about her I don’t know what it is. But it’s funny when girls are just being themselves with a guy and there are other women around to make fun of them I don’t know why that is. I think any woman that wants to be with a guy would like to show off a little bit of themselves and it worked for her favor.
On the interview portion of getting Chris’ take on all of the ladies he said, “he wished he was a polygamist right now”, which was completely hilarious.
Ashley has been acting like a fool all night long complaining that ever since the new girls came in that they did not have time to talk to him so she goes and she disrupt the WWE Diva girl by trying to dismiss her with a flower. Must have been the alcohol.
Tara, also had a bit much to drink was acting like a drunken fool I highly doubt he will give her a rose (but he did anyway)
 He gave the first impression rose to Britt. And the first kiss of the season begins.
Now that the first impression rose has been given out, Chris Harrison comes in and ready to steal Farmer Chris away so that he can begin his decision on who stays and who goes at the rose ceremony.
When they go back to the Bachelor Live, Chris Harrison is posing questions about the kiss between Farmer Chris and Britt, Michelle Money says that she heard a rumor that she does not shower makes you wonder why Michelle Money is still single. Why would she say something so stupid? And I like her; she’s gorgeous, not much going on in the head.
Chris is clearly nervous about this rose ceremony and goes in wondering if the choices he will make will be the right choices.
First Rose Ceremony
Kate Lynn the dancer
Jade
Samantha
Ashley I
Tandra
Nikki
Kelsey
Meagan
Alissa
Amber
Juelia
Becca
Trina
In the middle of handing out the roses Chris stops and walks out without saying anything. Realizing that Tara is very much out of it – he comes back and proceeds.
McKenzie
Tracy
Tara
Jordan
Jillian
Whitney
Carly
Ashley
Of course it ends with the girls crying their eyes out not having had the chance to get to know him more or was it they didn’t get their chance in the spotlight….who knows.
For some reason the yoga instructor took it really hard and in the middle of the interview she decided to go back to the house and did something on conventional and decided to steal Chris. However we won’t find out what will happen until next week.
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Welcome to the Red Carpet Event….wha…? The Bachelor Season 19

Welcome to the Red Carpet Event….wha…?
Who: Chris Soules from Arlington Iowa is the next bachelor due to not being chosen from last season’s bachelorette he became a popular bachelor and owns a six thousand acre  land. Chris appeared in the Andi season and became a fan favorite. I called him Farmer Chris on my wordspress blog which Chris Harrison adopted.
The opening of The Bachelor with the live red carpet event, for me was a step too far.
I felt that I was forced to watch something that was so completely unnecessary. I was not happy when I looked at my DVR and saw the bachelor was three hours I said to myself, ‘three hours of what?”
Sean and Catherine showed up to the red carpet along with Deanna and her husband when you have all of these people coming out of the limo like they are someone famous and they’re not. These are single people who have continuously made for names of themselves on television when it comes to dating what people do in private we have seen them displayed on the show.
Chris Harrison interviews Sean and Catherine basically nosing in on their relationship asking about when they plan on having babies which I think is rather personal but that is personal for anybody not just for people who have displayed looking for love on TV.
Moving forward Chris interviews Marcus and Lacy who met on the Bachelor in Paradise show and ended up falling in love and getting engaged rather quickly. They talked about having a wedding in the summertime but no date has been proposed yet.They go on to introduce some of the girls that will meet Farmer Chris starting with Britt from Los Angeles, rather pretty, she’s a waitress. She went on to discuss her last relationship, that she did not have sex at all and that she benefited from the relationship by appreciating who he was without the physical aspect. Apparently she gives out free hugs.
Jillian from D.C is 25 and she’s a national news producer. OMG this girl is fierce she was lifting the only weights definitely a training type of a girl can’t see her with Chris because she is too much out there.
Amanda 24 from Lake in the Hills Illinois she’s A ballerina instructor. In her interview she says she lives with her mom, she likes not having to pay bills and not cooking and not doing much of anything. Clearly not a woman design for Chris who’s an active farmer. I don’t think he will appreciate having a partner who’s lazy.
Whitney, a fertility nurse is 29 years old from Chicago Illinois. She helps couples who are struggling to have babies.  Being a nurse and being a fertility nurse seems just about right for Chris.
McKenzie, 21 is too young. I don’t know what she does but she already has a child who she named after a vegetable Kale.
Moving on to flight attendant Alyssa, 24 from New Jersey and cute she seems like the right girl for him.
Kelsey, 28, lives in Austin Texas and a school counselor is a widow for year and four months. Her husband was walking to work when his heart just stopped. Clearly emotional about this death, after all it was her husband, someone she was building a life with makes me question if she is a good candidate for someone who is looking to settle down. She’s very pretty and has a great body and seems really upbeat. Looks like from the coming attractions, she’s a contender.
Cutting back to the bachelor premiere on this useless red carpet Chris Harrison interviews and Andi and her big headed pick Josh who was not a fan favorite at all at least not for me. I’m not sure where Chris Harrison’s head is that he actually believes that these people walk down the street and they have the paparazzi chasing after them. They seemed really lovey dovey. The whole time Andi and Josh were talking to Chris Harrison, she was massaging Josh’s back. I thought to myself, “Wow maybe there is something there after all.” – (this was before I found out just the other day (Thursday. Jan 8th they broke up – more comments here)
I guess the useful thing about this red carpet was the Break up with Juan Pablo and Nikki because she was the most hated woman in the Juan Pablo season.
Chris Harrison had asked her about what was going through her mind the night that they reunited after the final Rose and how she seem to spill out or her emotions and Juan Pablo did not.
She talked about how it’s hard to have a relationship in the public eye and while she felt comfortable with expressing her feelings in public display and he did not, she stated she was fine with that because she knew that going into the relationship with him. And at the end of the day she chose to stand by him whether or not he displayed affection.
She also stated their break up was because of their careers and living in two different states. Even though they tried to make an effort to make the relationship work it did not. It was more of they had different priorities and different lifestyles. Chris asked her that even though they had different priorities was she a priority and Juan Pablo’s life and I could see the discomfort in her face when he was asking her that question.
She went on to say that she knew that she was not the number one priority in his life that place is for his daughter.  They are just different people but aspiring to accomplish different things which I think is bullshit.
I think he wasn’t into her like she thought he was or maybe he just wanted her to be something else that she was not. Chris also asked did she feel that he was in love with her and she said yes that she felt he was at some point but it just was too late to work things out as a couple.
 How she felt about the backlash when Chris pointed out about what the media outlets were saying about her, Nikki says that even though she did sign up for it, nothing  prepared her for the things that people had said about her. If she had seriously watched herself with an open mind, perhaps she wouldn’t have liked herself either.
As for JP, I believe he wasn’t into anyone and he was just playing along with what the producers either may have wanted or he just didn’t want to be another Brad Womack, who eventually chose no one and became the most hated man in Bachelor history.
Nikky did admit that Juan Pablo did tell her that he loved her in private and insisted that he really was a good person despite of what was depicted on national TV.
I don’t know, if it’s reality television how much more unreal can you be?

As the 50 Shades Nightmare Draws Upon Us….

The other night I rented Secretary. I had to. It was a way to remind myself set upon film that BDSM is a mindset, a mind fuck, if you will. James Spader played an excellent Dom while Maggie Gyllenhaal played the submissive women who found her BDSM side through Edward E. Grey. Grey….what a coincidence?

E.J. James, the supposed author who wrote this badly written book, had housewives losing their minds in to believing what what Fetish life is. I never read the book but I have read the comments about the book and I trust the comments. There’s no way that a “million” different people are wrong when they say this book is terrible. But yet somehow this poorly written book has been converted to a movie.

While I cannot judge the book for myself, I can only speak from my personal experience on both sides and the experience of those I interview. Recently. I added a section in my magazine called Domination Nation. The section features exclusively people in the BDSM industry where women work as professional Dominatrixes.

These women travel worldwide meeting subs around the world that will not only worship them but the subs get to live the lifestyle of having their personal desires met, whatever that may be.

I’ll give you a bit of an insight. There are those who have as fetish of being humiliated. Humiliation tactics may include, dressing up as a maid or being naked. Being dressed as a woman and collard while the mistress walks them around dressed like this.  Other humiliation tactics can be brutal, from spankings to pain and torture techniques that can include nipple clamps, chastity devices, electronic. butt plugs, caning, whippings and spankings, toilet training, eating cigarette ashes…possibly more. I’m sure. Please read what I just wrote. Can anyone honestly say they can partake in this type of scenario and be okay with it?

Probably not.

What did I start off by saying. BDSM is a mind set. a mind fuck.

Do you think that if they showed the true BDSM lifestyle on 50 Shades would it get an R rating. Absolutely not. People would be watching rated X at it’s best!

Is there such thing as light BDSM…sure, I guess. Blind folds, handcuffs, swing sets but if that’s all you’ve done you can’t honestly say you’ve experience BDSM in it’s purest and tortuous forms.

Recently the star of 50 Shades said he visited a Dungeon to gain inspiration for his role and instead ended up bashing those in the lifestyle by exclaiming he had to run and get in the shower before he touched his wife and child.

Actions such as these tells me that a person like this actor does not have an inkling of respect for this lifestyle. If that’s the mindset, then he can maintain his vanilla lifestyle and go fuck himself.

That tells me that you think BDSM is dirty and that the people that choose this lifestyle are dirty too.

Obviously there is no perfection in BDSM. One of the recurring themes you see at the request of any authentic Domina’s website one of the requirement is hygiene. No one wants to work with a smelly or dirty person. People that are in BDSM are not filthy people who live in filthy and have dirty dungeons filled with residue of cum.

Let’s get a fucking clue. BDSM is a lifestyle where the top requirements should be adhered to that any professional Domina will know to ask or even have up posted on their site.

Know CPR
Does the sub has any health issues that should be disclosed (i.e. heart problems)
A Safe Word
What are the limits if any
Does the Domina herself have any limitations – yes believe it or not she can say no
What kind of training has the Domina received?
Is anyone allergic to latex?

Just as it is important for the Domina to pose questions it’s just as important to the sub that they take their scenes in safety.

I had an interesting conversation with a Professional Dominatrix last night who comes from a superior lineage of those who live the BDSM lifestyle and extremely well trained. We both agree, going into your local sex shop, buying a latex dress and a whip does not make you a Dominatrix in any way shape or form.

I think the internet has bought many of those that noticed they can score quick money buy building a site, creating an Amazon wish list and make money without doing much of anything. While I don’t knock on how anyone makes their money, the fact remains. BDSM is a mind set and should be respected to it’s highest degree. In the same note, we also have many male subs who would rather play games and not tribute to a Dominatrix because they feel they can get over and get whatever it is they think they can get for free.  Male subs who are true to the lifestyle do not play games.

Mistress Christianna who resides in Florida has been in the BDSM life since the 70’s. Now in her sixties, she still practices the lifestyle.  You can only imagine how she felt when she found her list of rules in E.L. James’ book. Also note Christian Grey…..

I’ve also been told that a man wrote this book. Would not surprise me within the least. I mean Christian Grey…..

Sounds like this man who wrote this book did very little research on what BDSM is and wrote a fantasy of his desires without probably proofreading and then asked his friend to be the face of this book so that housewives could feel good about their mundane lives.

I know this sounds cruel. I’m sure housewives reading this are saying. what is that bitch talking about, my life isn’t mundane.

Okay so if it’s not, and you really want to explore true BDSM don’t support this stupid movie.

Until then,

MB~

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