The Night Before….

For the last year I’ve been talking to one guy that I have ignored for months but for some reason, one night, last year around this time, we just began talking and the conversation took off.

Understand that for the last four years I haven’t been in a relationship. Sure I’ve dated but I haven’t committed myself to one person and there are many reasons behind this. One of them is fear.

Now while everyone can think, “not Marabelle Blue”, the face remains my last relationship left me feeling empty and distrustful. Bitter? No, I think I pretty much got over that part but distrustful, yes, without a doubt.

So, with that being said, I’m sure this begs the question why I have kept him a secret for all of this time.

My magazine started off as a blog and while I haven’t been blogging as much as I used to, the other part of me is constantly shared with the world, whether it be Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, there are things that I need to keep to myself.

The other part is disclosing a new relationship. The last thing I want for myself is to share someone with the world and not sure if I want to do that or if it will even work out. I would rather save face and save myself from the embarrassment. I have seem women change their Facebook status relationship faster then they update their daily status.

While we all don’t need to know if you’re in a relationship today and tomorrow in an open relationship or “it’s complicated”, I realized that people become addicted to this sorted attention OR that they just merely want to be in a relationship just to be in one and only to turn around and change that status to apply for your current life situation.

I choose not to go that route because for me, at the end of the day, it’s about my relationship with my guy. Some things are better left unsaid and further it gives me the opportunity to get to know someone without the relationship being tainted by what we call now the “haters” (used to be jealousy but that changed LOL)

So while now you all know the story, I only gave you a small portion. Indulge and enjoy.

The rest is for me to savor….In private. 😉

Until then.

Loves and Hugs,